"A Birthmother puts the needs of her child above the wants of her heart"
Saturday, January 16, 2010
Today I attended my first baby shower since I place my precious little girl and to my surprise once i walked thru the door the warm welcome from my caring friends made it so much easier on me. Baby showers and I have not been good because it broke my heart that I never got one. Now I know I made the choice to place my little girl for adoption but what made it hard for me to attend one was because I planned on raising Evelyn on my own. I decided to place her for adoption when I was 5 months pregnant and my dearest twin sister had already registared me at target and was planning a shower for me… so its been a difficult thing for me… I have had several friends have babies and I have not gone to their shower, so my new resolution this year was to attend ashower and get over that hurdle and show my dear friends love and supprt. Today I am proud of my self. The anticipation of walking thru the door killed me.. I almost didn’t walk in the door, until I texted my dear sister and told her how I was feeling and she gave me words of support and enocourgement and love. I am greatful for all the love and understanding my family and friends show me. I know now how Lynzie would probably feel going to showers and not being able to concieve before she receive my daughter. Woman who are not able to have children of their own suffer a similar grief birthmothers suffer when they place their babies in another womans arms. I am grateful Lynzie can have kids and has my daughter and her new little son who she gave birth to Dec 2nd 2009.