Friday, January 21, 2011

"He'll carry You"

I was at work the other day, a little stressed, so i put on some Hilary Weeks on my Pandora radio (always relaxing) and this song came on. I instantly thought back to the toughest time in my life, where I thought I would never make it out, My heart was ripped from my chest, my Baby was gone, I could only smell her, see her when I closed my eyes, heard her cry when I tried to sleep, yet she wasn't there. I missed her so much those first months after placement. I can say it gets easier and easier, but that doesnt mean I miss her any less or don't think of her every minute of every day. I have her picture on my wall at work, I see her everyday those big beautiful brown eyes, beautiful smile. I was sad again for a moment when this song came on and as I listened to the words closely ( getting distracted at work) I understood the meaning of this song. I was carried by my Heavenly Father, he knows and Knew the pain I would be suffering. HE was there helping me guiding me, keeping the faith in me... letting me know I made the right decision the BEST decision for my ANGEL.

He'll Carry You

He knows your heart
He knows your pain

He knows the strength it took just too simply breathe today

He sees the tears that you cry

He knows your soul is aching to know why

He hears your prayers each humble word

When you said you couldn’t face another day he understood

He knows the path that you will find

Though you felt alone he’s never left your side

Chorus:
He knew there’d be moments when no earthly words

Could take away your sorrow

And no human eyes could see what you’re going through

When you’ve taken your last step and done all that you can do

He will lift your heavy load and carry you



He’ll bring you peace and leave you hope

And in the darkest night he’ll comfort you

Until you know the sun will rise and each new day

You will have the strength to live again



Chorus:

And when there are moments when no earthly words

can take away your sorrow

And no human eyes could see what you’re going through

When you’ve taken your last step and done all that you can do

He will lift your heavy load and carry you

He hears you when you’re crying in the night

He hears you when your soul longs to find

Till the morning will come

And the light of the dawn reassures

 
Chorus:

That in the moments when no earthly words

can take away your sorrow

And no human eyes could see what you’re going through

When you’ve taken your last step and done all that you can do

He will lift your heavy load and carry you
 
 
This was the hardest thing I know I will have to experience in my life and I know adoption was the BEST choice. I had to think of Heavenly Father's Daughter, he intrusted her to me, and it was my job to get her to the family she was meant to be with. I am so grateful for adoption and the blessings of open adoption. Being able to have visits and emails and video chats with my ANGEL and her AMAZING PARENTS has truely helped my grieving. I know she is very loved but so many people.
 
I have seen adoption touch so many lives, Adoptive couples, birthmothers, brithgrandparents, sisters, brothers, mothers, those who are in the support circle. Adoption is an amazing Miracle to be apart of.

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